Those poor unfortunate American souls

          I’m somewhat of a rarity on the WWW: by being a non-USA-residing quintessentialist blogging in Eng….and that’s a curious place to be in. On the 1 hand:

it gives me the global perspective which US  authors  too often lack.

On the other: It never ceases to jolt me as to sheer degree to which American female citizens are:

A) brutally, openly oppressed ;

B) unaware of the comparative level of their oppression – due to Amer. males creating an air-tight web of mental insularity. In fact, it reminds me of glass box miming: US-ians OWN the Internet – thus giving them the entire world @ their fingertips { and radfems really do try more than then others, but they’re behind on a whole lifetime of global exposure]

When I studied Gender& Development, I found 1 consistent statistic to to reliably stand out among OECD graphs of fem. suffering. I named it The US exception.

It applied to absolutely everything in a bad way in all the obv. things:

maternal mortality, access to affordable meds; deaths from DV; religious oppression; teen mums; student loans; the pay gap; sex ed; abortion access & endless debate; social security; lack of common law marriage; episiotomies; gun-happy approach to hysterectomy; abysmal pol. representation

US data was ALWAYS found to be, without fail , – @ the bottom of the well.  But this ( as it turns out…) was only the tip of the iceberg. >\|In personal convos with my Amer’ sisters i’ve learnt of many more, only less statitistically obv. coersions , such as:

  • marriage to men for healthcover & roof over head (most famously perpetrated by the very ill & much maligned for it Dworkin) 
  • stripping thru college (this one just boils my mind alive. 1stly – the degree to which stripping is casually treated in the culture @ large; 2ndly – because I consider to be possibly more traumatic & publicly degrading than prostitution)
  • extreme neuroticism over fem. reproductive organ function: the mandatory use of tampons {when they’re stated to produce toxic shock; ‘re unhealthy to use overnight; tough to put in for many girls + make it dif. to track healthy discharge}; embarassment over public toileting; + seriously ludicrous euphemisms { ‘down there’ –  I’m looking @ U); use of  vagina  to mean vulva. 
  • womyn paying for the all the med. cost of mens’ violent + libidinous harm.
  • compulsory hetero- being absolute & used to lure womyn into arrangements which cancel themselves out ( as in : they were better off being single after all]
  • lack of labour laws, such as a livable min. wage + disability insurance + egalitarian private health cover

 

US of A is the epicenter of the Western model of woman-hating, & it radiates out to everyone else in its’ diameter. It maintains plenty of impact on non-OECD countries, but the most immediate + recognisable is within the inner circle

Let’s not forget where the great big P-industry  is located (LA) & how it floods the world with the filth + the social norms it dictates. I spent my 20s being so tormented by them that I floated`dissociated from my form (yep, they radiated out to Asia-Pacific)|               Add to that the drastically plastic celebrity misogyny + the overt & infinitely prolific ultra-violent girl-hating of Hollyweird. I can’t get over how the latter never allows XX characters to come off as living, breathing beings, yet there’s a major improvement when u merely hop on over the border to Canadian-produced media.

pink revolver gun
Photo by rawpixel.com on Pexels.com

 

USA’s also famous for its’ sexual neuroticism {incessant no, of vague\juvenile/female-degrading euphemisms}

; spectacular love of guns (deadly phallic symbols)  + the stripping industry.  And the infamously aggressive, pounding + dry style of intercourse,( low on female climaxes & high on ache+tears)

+ popularising all the ‘kinky’  add -on’s to Piv: *u name ’em, cos they’re too yucky  + we hear about them all the time*.

+ obsessive militarism, masturbation + fellatio (juvenile-termed ‘blow – jobs’))))))) + boobs (but not for their primary purpose)

; last, but not least – the raunch fashion industry- driving the mainstream: Most notably – pre-prebescent level of hairless-ness, slim-ness, pre-child-bearing labia demanded of women

 

Then there’s the Viagra, KY (?why don’t American women lubricate on their own like everybody else?) _+  a never.ending  stream of ED + premature meds>…to the point of it being a broad cultural joke.

…..bizarre, I tell ya.

 Do u see where I’m going with this? Ask urselves: why does the owner of an appendage * which evolved SOLELY for the purpose of being stimulated by vaginas*..need all this  weird & thorougly un-sexy+ often silicon-y* extra stuff ?

Hints getting louder:  note the above-average consumption of video erotica in Israel + certain places in Middle East? Factor in  Israel possessing an untold no. of nukes — certainly the highest in the world per head of pop. + a Middle Eastern religion based ENTIRELY on militarism + promising a bundle of prostituted gals to service men in heaven?

 

Bazinga! It’s the circumcision talking..!

Until my not-so-long-ago inundation into the US more on the subject – I was mystified by all this . I figured it was a Judaic thing.Since I’ve found out }> the premise of Sex& the City  became even more fantastical. All this enthusiastic screwing of statistically & anecdotally unsuitable appendages for female fun?!?! Yeah, right……

 

 

Right after USA became 1 of 2 superpowerful Big Bads, in the 50s,: the rates of baby foreskin-lopping jumped from 50 % to 90%. AND u know who originally forced it to 50%?to become a widespread social more? WHy – the military, of course. For America’s ascent to Global Mitary Overlord coincided with the descent of Britain – where the rates of dude-baby peen slicing ,.fell off a cliff .

 

Coincidence? I think not. And neither does this awfully astute commenter,.., for a man  (scroll to 1st in comment section}

:https://www.empowher.com/sexual-health/content/sex-uncircumcised-man?allcomments=yes#comment-253325

But Jews & their copycats werent the only ones to come up with such barbarity

http://www.bradshawfoundation.com/unambal/circumcision_initiation.php

Look @ the other Global Military OVerlord, which suppressed the cutting faiths on a tight leash, and outside of them – had a cutting rate of NONE. (this being the Russkies) & their relationship with their guns, which they’ve also had scores of + run a whole global industry of supplying them to upstart dictatorships:      well,they treat them like practical tools of domination. They don’t put them in display cases & lovingly caress them like their extra peen. They ALSO don’t have a culture of sex. neuroticism. In fact, if anything. they’re bloody open /

 

Warning: a porno image is in the middle of doc

http://www.sexasnatureintendedit.com/10F/doctor_northrup.html

The subject of male circumcision’s fascinated me for some time > ; in fact enough to wade past the gross pics above. Because there’s gotta be something revealing about the Doods slicing &dicing !the center-point of their existence! – their willies, thus inexplicably  reducing  the high they claim’ their life revolves around! + making it harder to obtain.

Needless to say – they also didn’t ask how the owners of tracts (which counter -evolved specifically with a sensitive area to get pleasure out of a foreskin) – are gonna feel about the matter. This is consistent with them not asking whether those owners can comfortably wear corsets+ footwear   * not designed for human  bodies* – to top off with having them prodded with penises …not made for human vaginas.

….resulting in those vaginas getting assaulted with heavy pumping, loss of natural lube, woefully low climax + overall enjoyment rate ; – and  3x the rate of intercourse ache &  dudes relieving themselves too early.

 

 

Which all adds up to perhaps 1 in 3 of the world’s women + girls being subjected to ALL OF THE SAME FUNHOUSE OF PiV cost////////with none of the pay offs !!!!

But wait..There’s worse! Mass-cutting countries also have a tendency towards being the most violent + oppressive countries towards female brethren..by which I’m not remotely surprised. In THE most vicious horde of them all -it ‘s preferred for boys to wait until 7 y.o. to get it done >>so he remembers it vividly & spends the rest of his miserable life taking it out on the women, who had naught to do with it….which is the point of the whole shebang.

In the US, with its’ vicious medical assault industry.>this also results in many brutal unnecessary surgeries on female organs. It radiates further out to pet-care:, as the US is the sole remaining OECD country to allow unfettered mutilation of dog ears+ tails. Where i live – it’s unheard of & haven’t witnessed 1 single docked pooch.       By which I can surmise that sliced&diced (in babyhood) males carry a subliminal memory , which results in  a hankering for slicing & dicing creatures lower than them on the totem pole.

Like previously discussed by those taking down Reformis/m:

Conditioning only maximises male lethality . it doesn’t impart it. I propose that the mutilaltion is part & parcel of the same set of tactics , but performed on the body

 

 

 

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why won’t anybody think of the children!?!

i was outraged by this Swedish show, where a couple deliberated on aborting a DS {Down Syndrome] & saying that those kids.‘re becoming extinct < all aborted…….so they go ahead with keeping it as a their disabled pet. Cos they’re such  Good Ppl,  ya know.        The series is Netflix-funded  Bonus Familia.

 

I’ve long had thought-crimes & occasionally  speech -crimes too , on this subject. U know>……………………when concerned parents go on& on about abortion in general + disabled fetus ones spec. I had them way before I became a rad. in fact.

 

Because the real problem is here is the assumption that these impaired and |or undesired fetuses ℑℜ want to be born,  by default.  And nobody brings up the selfishness of parents choosing to bring them into the world with full knowledge of how badly they & those forced to care for them’ll always suffer; + in the case of XY ones – the danger, aversion & sex. harassment they’ll inflict on the inevitably fem. carers/ Because thus afflicted males don’t have a motivation to put on the civilised display, which Normies use to lull females into doing their bidding. 

In the case of girls: <that they’ll carry a 88% chance of being sexually abused by their 18th b’day, and that this abuse may result in forced reproduction of more genetically impaired “heirs’.

This smart lady described it beautifully: https://sinbigger.wordpress.com/.

She called it: “ letting things Live + Die  all the way”

 

Furthermore:  I believe in ABSOLUTE female bodily autonomy. Meaning: I’m fine with abortion @ 8.999 months if so wished by the gestating human. Even if the baby is half-way out & or has 1 foot stuck inside.  NO WOMAN ,   anywhere  deserves to have her body subsumed under the baby’s (read. mens’ systems) needs. As long as a being is dependent on her to live – not  1 min. of her life must be wasted in sustaining it, when it isnt’ wanted. And lets’ face it : Who would ever want it , if women weren’t made clinically insane by men? WHO WOULD want to go thru childbirth? ever?! What kind of sado-masochistic nonsense is it to desire the worst thing that a central nervous system is capable of inflicting on u.?

BECAUSE SHE IS A HUMAN. all on her lonesome. NOt a support vessel for anybody. can u imagine what men would do with this, if they gestated? Can u imagine them being denied life-supporting,  or pain-relieving, or  any  meds for the “sake of the baby”? Or alcohol, or pleasing food, or any pleasures @ all!!??

In this world, baby-tethered humans’re a blank in the med. field. They’re  INVISIBLE  from implantation up to the end of lactation.  NO MEDS ‘re tested on them. They can’t take a headache pill without running to the doc. And heaven forbid they develop a serious illness while gestating – they can be denied, or pressured into refusing chemo for instance.

 

I belong to the lucky few women in this world to have never had an implantation in my uterus, but it hangs over me every time I get anything med. done. I’ve never had to say YES to “ any chance u could be pregnant”,  cos I belong to en even rarer class of never getting invaded by  a mans’ body parts sexually. Yet it jolts me:

“What’d happen if i wasn’t such a lucky freak among my caste? Shall they deny me that X-ray?[ Those anti-biotics< if i WAS getting invaded & had to damage control with BC}?”

 

When I was about to begin Chemo, I had my statement of not being interested in fert. preservation overriden, & STILL getting lectured on the matter. …Yet  nobody  told me that Chemo + Radio has a strong chance of leaving me in a state of half-life I’m in 4 years later.

I haven’t only been always Anti-Natalist, but I’ve additionally had Zero sentimentality towards fetuses & loss of them. Womyn ‘re drugged with bonding chemicals during gestation against their cerebral wishes. Meghan Murphy wrote about this on FC:

…She miscarried 1 week before the abortion, + was instantly flooded with her body screaming in her ear >>to replace with a new fetus. Alas, she was smart + feminist enough to override it, and remained blissfully childfree

 HOwever, women who don’t listen to their head over sentimental propaganda + hormones, not uncommonly become drawn into a cycle of miscarriages + child-bearing following it.
     On Jessica JOnes S1,  a raped + consequently pregnant girl expresses the only logical way to view being sucked dry by a fetus:
I want this  thing * spitting this part disdainfully* out of me immediately. I can feel it growing every min.”
**paraphrasing. don’t remember exact quote
   And seeing as I’m thought-criming HARD today, i’ll go on to say that I also never cared about forcible tube-tying. Because i believe it to be the greatest gift to a female to NOT be able to carry more of mens’ spawn & be kept on a leash due to it. Once I figured out I had Endometriosis – I was THRILLED  to find out that it has up to 1/2 chance of infertility. 
.Not only because it makes me breathe easier – due majorly lesser chance of being an impregnable rape target, {which disabled gals’re precariously vulnerable to}….but something  mental.
  Something holistic.
A sense of individual bodily freedom. My soul feels lighter+ less burdened
.__~something that Men live with Every. Single. Day.
 
Notice how there’s no hoopla over mass DENIAL of tube-litigation?
tells ya all u need to know

 

Continue reading “why won’t anybody think of the children!?!”

Weaponised souls

I haven’t resided in rad. spaces for long (3 years); but sooner or later, u must ask yourself this:

What do we doo?? Once it becomes obvious that Dood-World is careening off a cliff and we’re quite literally frying in hell & it’s all unstoppable…

 

What now?

Well, it seems like our own bodies’ve already decided for us: & they’re shutting the source of the whole shebang down: reproduction,  specifically. of boys

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/technology/science/pollution-debate-born-of-chemical-valleys-girl-baby-boom/article18253243/

U might’ve also noticed all the fertility tech having become about as commonplace as  toaster:

Well, this is because the current cohort of child-bearing ladies’re rather unfit for child-bearing, notably because of 2 major diseases: PCOS + Endometriosis. Together they account for 20%+ of the population.  PCOS has an infertility rate of 70%;_ Endo – 50%

Female humans’re also wisening up quick in spite of the Mummy propaganda going into overdrive, for 1/4  now chooses child-riddance (just had to play on it! lol). In my own circle of five 30 -somethings, Not 1 ‘s reproduced.

Among those unlucky enough to remain fertile: pregnancy grinds their bodies & minds down  to a pulp. While always inhumanly difficult, it has now become a slow suicide mission, with 54% of millenials diagnosed with a chronic illness + many more suffering in a sub-clinical stage, no doubt;

-men’re useless as ever

_ kids’re even more exponentially ill ( no, they’re not ‘just allergies’!)

 

Clearly , everything in this wacky pyramid Starts. and Ends. with us & our hijacked wombs.

 

 

 

 

 

 

How the Soviets never stopped worrying & didn’t learnt to love the bomb. part II – the reveal

What’s unusual about this loving care doled on peoples of the USSR:

The change of tune…

 

You see, for the 1st half of the regime – it wasn’t quite so caring. What took place before 1953,~made Nazis look like meek school bullies. The atmosphere was rather…..mass-murder-y.

 Dozens of millions were artificially starved to  death;

worked into the grave in labour camps;

sent out to be tortured & frozen in Siberia

slaughtered in the wars

lived in terror during Stalinist purges ( can’t be good for ur health to constantly wait in trepidation ~ if u’re next to be taken away in the night, & wiped from photos& proclaimed the Enemy of the People]

 

And then, voila!, here comes the Sun! the age of Benevolence!

≅So what happened in 1953  – to make this wondrous change occur?

Continue reading “How the Soviets never stopped worrying & didn’t learnt to love the bomb. part II – the reveal”

How the Soviets never stopped worrying & didn’t learnt to love the bomb. part I

I was  born behind the Iron Curtain just before it fell down. Which meant that I grew up in the ruins of a rather curious medical situation

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I was utterly perplexed why on Earth the powers-that-be in the USSR were so  obsessed  with the health of their citizens. – on a level that’d give Chris Traegar { * Parks & Rec} a run for his wallet.

 

When i was 3-5, i had the fortune of catching the last glimpse of the lavish convalescent system that Communist govt set up:    We went to a magical therapeutic place in the Caucasus mountains..  It was a Mineral Water resort. Yes, u heard right:

A whole  place where people simply set around drinking mineral water springing our the ground . Or they drank for a bit, & went on picturesque mountain walks  to places like The Temple of Airs: a ruin which had winds from every direction hitting with unearthly, gentle energy. It was like a glimpse of being in heaven

Sounds amazing, right? Well, it was actually nothing out of reach to ur average Soviet citizen with a minor gut ailment> in which case they could get significant time off work (we’re talking months here) ..to go off & guzzle min. water…for free….

And the water was magic: _ it was the only thing that made develop a sense of hunger with my twisted gall bladder. I think the clean mountain air helped too.

but wait! there’s more!

When my Mamma ( in her 20s) encountered a concussion  – they didn’t scan her head & send her off to rest.

 

Wanna guess what they did?

She was placed on bed rest in a convalescent hospital, where she was spoon-fed without lifting her head for. 1 . month.

I kid u not here , dear readers.  and this wasn’t the only time where such spurious medical care was heaped on her. For she went on to display heart arythmia. At which point she was also given significant time off  from her studies, in order to do daily , specially tailored exercise + moral support..> to get thru the exercise. This treatment worked such wonders, that she never had any heart problem again.

When I was a wee kiddie in the 90s in this post Soviet space> there were no Dr waits. >U simply walked into a clinic , went in search of the specialist ( there were no GPs) > they’d see u right away,,,for as long as u needed.,,,for free ( and almost all Drs were women!)

On the way there we walked past a hydro-therapy center. A decade ago , Russia still had the highest proportion of med. professionals per head of pop.  in the world. And they were still women

 

Every (post) Soviet – was hyper-aware of her  health @ all times.they pulled out thermometer anytime someone coughed, were panicky about droughts; but did insist on fresh air; treated basic colds as very serious business requiring herbal inhalation ; knew the lethal level of temp etc.etc. They also considered  medical textbooks to be light bedtime reading & even had a joke about those who read them soo much that they found every symptom in themselves!!;/)

U know that bizarre Russian custom of drinking vodka+jumping in an ice hole?it’s actually an extreme version of physio technique, where u gradually take colder showers over some time, to improve blood circulation. People jumping in those holes have trained for a long period via showering.

This medical_herbal_physio web extended a tentacle into every area of life:

#Kids were sent off on theraupetic sporting camps

#people undertook tai-chi -type morning exercises in their apartment block yards, or did them individually ( there was a monkey bar in our flat)                                                                  #girls got excused from PE on their period, and were told not to overextend themselves. Weirder still> this was NOT done in a sexist manner

#if u couldn’t make it to a clinic> Drs did home visits. They too – were all female & rather sympathetic & not paternalistic.

#Patients were not treated as dummies & told that things were “in their head”. In fact , the role of the Dr was only to advise.  Their authority wasn’t even req. to acquire most meds> chemists provided them over the counter.

#Surgery didn’t have Western -length waiting lists. In fact, I ‘m not certain that i had any.

#Invasive medicine was treated as the last resort.  Most of the focus was on preventative, gently theraupetic kind, non-chemical kind; and folksy meds was taken seriously. Remarkably – there was a Wise Woman in my town – the kind the witchhunts took care of in the west a long, long time ago,

#There was an acute focus on Gut: 1stly: – with diet , which blended seamlessly with Eastern Euro staples, eg. Kvas + fermented kraut + kefir.

2ndly: with enemas, tea + aforementioned spring- water sanitariums, where u could get to go every year with a chronic ailment.

#People were given tiny plots of country land- to grow their own produce.

There was a tonne of other physio practices: mudbaths, drinking with food, hypnosis.

 

At 1 point the govt got so gutsy>> that they dared to PROHIBIT ALCOHOL!!! in Russia!!!!

This was in the 80s, aaaaaaaaand it went just about as well as it did in the Prohibition…..> so it was quickly terminated

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

dead to me

*bear with me, dear readers; for if i don’t get the draft version of this post out > it’ll be the end of me. Seriously: I’m DONE agonising over it.

I’ll further fill it it out with the art references. but so far, simply tell me:

AM i carrying a point across as to ^why all sexuality _ is a negative force?^

 

My ideological pet peeve is thus:

 

 


 

 

 

In the middle of writing this – I came to a nuclear realisation :

chi  = is not hoodoo-woodoo hippie BS. We really must be balanced to be content!

All these overwhelming, needy cravings that we develop ( for erotics; touch; grand unconditional love as solving everything; consumerism) are there…..

because this mental world makes us unbalanced, feeling like shit & therefore craving too much of just 1 puzzle piece, when  feeling good only works when the puzzle pieces fit together!!!!!!

This is where addiction comes from !^^^^^^^^^^^^^Whoa!! slapping myself on head here………………………………!

 

…..which leads me onto this craving~ because i’m just so impossibly tired of people not seeing thru  why    getting ur jollies   is elevated stupidly high &in a complete undeserved way to serve men’s purpose. I’m puritannically & emphatically over  (what I term) vulvae-gazing; .. going on in ALL fractions of Womens’ LiB.

Sex, without exception, is at the core of all our oppression_down to genetic level. The 2nd Wave became split (by male manipulation )along the false line of Sex = Loyalty=Life Satisfaction. When in reality: female ‘sexuality’ varies only along the spectrum of its’ evolved adaptation to rape <<stemming back to our ape ancestors’ + response to Pavlovian conditioning. Femonade was dead on about this:

 

“Women need to be liberated FROM sex – not BY it”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Alas: Males handed down the diktat – that it is not to BE.

Notice how there’re no parades for Spinsters? No same-sex platonic marriage? Sex-less sensuality?? No coming-out ceremony for being an anti-natalist-man-hater-hell_bent on female solidarity_ affection_and_ destruction_of nuclear_family (aka Prude)???

#Asexuality only became *grudgingly* accepted about 3 mins ago. There’s all of 1(!) recorded case of female friends as co-parents, – in Britain

 

 

I really dig this stance:

https://yinzadi.wordpress.com/2017/12/04/why-i-am-antisexual-addiction/

But NOT the author’s racial stance^

+

And here’s a fine piece of body horror:

For i sincerely don’t believe  sexuality  to be a positive force. Ain’t nothing but a bunch of reproductive hormones  holding us hostage – on a male-bred schedule. There is a reason why they used to be called base urges

And they definitely are that – because they operate while we’re fertile , and sometimes spike up in 2nd trimester. For the vast duration of female-kind’s existence we weren’t horny @ all – as we were perpetually knocked up , or breast-feeding. Many of our kind still are. Childbirth destroys whichever nerve endings we ever possess internally & can produce external damage too. In some mothers, libido switches off entirely after reproducing __ as it’s now fulfilled it’s purpose.

Personally : I detest existing a highly sexed being. I get hit by these dreaded hormones twice in my cycle * like clockwork* and inevitably end up doing, reading  & watching things I don’t want to be doing, reading  & watching !

They waste my time; they waste my energy; they waste my $, exec. function, icky factor +nerves I can ill -afford this in my state, but they were still a problem when I was healthier.

I’ve led a life skirting asexuality, so that’s avoided a solid 97.7 % of the harm doled out on our brethren via Sexy Sex, i reckon. But the rest’s been bad enough.

Because all that partnered genital contact – gap’s been filled by :

wondering why on earth i can’t climax like a normal woman (mechanics’re there , explosive pleasure – not so much…))

pining

stressing

researching

play-acting

formerly continuously performing a taboo I won’t confess to on _ on my grave ( it didn’t harm anyone..)

being pushed into limited male contact_ i absolutely hated @ some point

figuring out what the hell am sexually (cause aspies have funny sexualities, apparently _ hetero programmin’ never clicked}

regret

inducing irritation, soreness & minor bleeding ( enough to freak me out]

social embarassment over not fulfilling my role as a prodding hole for males & the modesty trap

& last, but not least,

reading some terrible writing!….L-)

acquiring perverse & useless devices

body OCD & femmy self-punishment over having it + resentment

acute anxiety

longing jealousy for all those lucky sex-getters

lowering of standards

feeling like a male-possession overtakes me during PMS hormonal flood

feeling crappy about the whole shebang chemically + mentally

experiencing hormonal coersion : like i’m dragged by the collar & have to let it out to go back to being ME

male celebrity obsessions  <before I slayed the het dragon

confusion

chasing down the Philosopher’s Stone of stimulating, non-misogynistic material

^^^^All this I was ought to do< if i simply wanted to sleep & get on with life!!!!

 

overall, i derived only 2 positive effects from my sex maniac-hormonal make-up:

1)Release warmed my feet & let out intolerable anxiety produced by illness

2)Fantasy served as a distraction during cancer treatment

^^^^^This is exactly my point. That u must be in a state of intolerable discomfort   to undertake such strange activity (involving bits that pass excrement & are awfully sensitive for frequent fiddling)

 

In the middle of all this I had a blissfull couple of months, when an anti-depressant made me sexless. Freaking wonderful > I tell ya’…

The 1 time I experienced overwhelming desire> it scared me. It was like being drunk & I  really don’t like that feeling.  It was equal parts [pleasurable thrill + cold sweat thrill]^ It also felt sorta cannibalistic …like i wanted to consume the object. Clearly I’m not the only one ~ as vampirism = sexual metaphor. After all : being in heat isn’t a pleasant experience for female animals (think about pleasure resulting from drives contextually. Meaning: that questionable high only exists to let out the tension of the drive}

The reason it felt so intense < stems from us – females living in a fishbowl of pleasure & passion -deprivation + aforementioned unbalance

We live in a world of males sucking JOy & wonder out of everything _ like Dementors. WE’re also badly Stockholmed & prone to eroticising attention from our captor. I sincerely don’t know that what I crave IS eros, and not a desperate feeling of  wanting to feel alive in SOME form.

 

I’ll now come to the dreaded task of slaying the sacred cow:

of taking males out of the equation….

Well, it’s certainly a least worst option. If sexuality absolutely must exist> we should all be in merry sacred cow congress – either with ourselves or other females.

But MUST it exist? Is it worth it? In it’s absolute best form, it still swallows up sensuality with croc jaws & doesn’t allow the non-sexual form to exist;

it still follows a pattern of hormonal drugging ( the honeymoon stage is all about getting u knocked up quickly > to escape extra male rapey violence in estrus; & those hormones still perform their programming between women -by default)

it irritates genitalia

& most bitterly & heart-breakingly of all …

…it divides us Like. Crazy. I wanna weep everytime the non|Sapphic divide comes up & determines our whole lives & our feminism in separate camps. I wanna scream: “They’re just genitals with rich nerve endings, people! Rub them like a genie lamp & get on with life & our liberation! Or just get on anti-depressants for the sexless affect ( those things’re useless for everything else)”

For as long as this sorry mess continues:

!) The bulk of women & girls shall remain in the state of acute touch & affection deprivation from each other  – since it’s all been deemed erotic in recent times

!)

“Being someone who thinks heterosexuality in women is a sign of insanity in patrirachy, the whole thing is a sad commentary on women’s servitude to PIV.

^ this is a comment by Sheila G from Femonade.

 

Whistle as u read, and Take a thought experiment with me:

***what IF we accorded the same social importance to….

toileting? I mean: there are some pleasurable poos out there,…

 

 

I’ve wondered in my previous post# as to where the line lies? At what point does  sensual become  sexual?

Well, it’s the hormones that determine that. Whatever stimulation u give to urself in the middle of a hormonal peak = ‘ll just feel like fun massage outside of it. That’s exactly what going solo felt like to me as a child. It had zero sexual context because the hormones weren’t present.  in fact: i don’t remember how i discovered it. but it’s highly likely that stress +chronic illness led to it.

We’ve been indoctrinated into the male experience of it because males’re always hormonal. They don’t fluctuate like we do. They don’t switch off @ menopause. This is why PIv’s redundant & painful after menopause – no hormones to drive the mating\rape adaptation response. +sexual urges overall

Lubrication is 100% rape adaptive: It happens to save ur internal organs @ inevitable forced mating. Arousal > produces lubrication. ALso – ever noticed that fear feels an  awful lot like  arousal?  Both start in the pit of ur stomach. Both’re terrifically stressful. In fact, the rollercoaster analogy applies to both aptly: “Terror> swearing u;ll never do it again> flood of feel-good hormones> yay, I’ll go again!> unpleasant come-down ”

 

Unfinished art references

Onegin: “End this torment.

Dead to Me: Go watch this show. It’s the gift I never dreamt Netflix shall deliver & wrap – a platonic female life-partnership|love plot, which follows traditional romance lines, but never, Ever (!!) veers into a smidgeon of sex.

_I also deem that 1-on -1 partnerships’re very much designed to be claustrophobic ^# which the series does address.

yellow dead end sign during day time
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

 

CRE wrote about men deliberately making XX-possessors sick enough to ‘want’ males. <https://cannabisrefugeeesq.wordpress.com/

…but it’s a tricky balance ; ‘ cos we can’t be made too sick.  when you’re as incapacitated ( for performing MANdated life tasks) as i’ve been for most of my existence & hence autistic , something really bonzer happens:

{still working on this…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Womens’ art & womens’souls

In my other unfinished post on the subject, I never found the wordst to describe a female artistic spirit. So i’ll just let u experience it for urselves. This is the finest song of the most creative indie artist there is.: Her name’s Regina Spektor & her output is the closest i’ve seen to what womyn could produce (if only we were free). Both lyrically & musically – she’s one of a kind. Sing along to it with heart  – the song ‘ll pick u up & whirl u like a dervish. And u’ll feel release after.

As a piano kid, I grew up listening to classical music constantly, and yet —– i’m not a fan of it.!.! It was complex- yes, and far more passionate than any pop song. But Still – – it LACKED something.; I only now realise that what it lacked – is LIFE, because it was all written by men.Regina’s song above Oozes with life. /\It drips over the cone of musical format like an ice-cream.

“The curious case of Amy-Sherman Palladino”

^ A thoroughly unfeminist, but so patently Female-creative a TV show-runner. She produced 2 run-away hits :

*the current Amazon darling ‘Marvellous Mrs. Maisel’

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everyone’s favourite teen pregnancy fantasy  *Gilmore girls

Her work has this …..quirk [as malestream’d call it], or playfullness & appreciation of life’s minutia as interesting in itself. It’s also theatrical – but not static/ Mrs. Maisel executes an impossible, high-wire act of a tone, which no man could ever pull off. The only 1 half-way success was Desperate Housewives.

There’s a scene in ‘Mrs.’ ;,

where she tags along to a art show with her bf and wanders off into a small room behind the grand wankery of male-worship display (aKa Modern Art]. There she sees an indifferent, accented lady knitting & having her own small canvases displayed. The artist sells her 1 painting for a fraction of the big, soul-less mens’ ones being fawned over, and makes no fuss over it. Mrs. explains her purchase as:

“There was LiFe in this drab room. There was none in the main shiny exhibition’

^this here is the reason why classical music feels meh”’. It’s a well-crafted result of men’s approach to old-school art:

#Study the technique; add up the pieces; P lay it like a clock mechanism.

Result?

It comes out Sounding like a grandfather clock – chimes complex pattern, but it simply doesn’t FLOW. These days they dont’ bother with the craftsmanship > so it ends up more like vacuum cleaner noise.

Frida Kahlo

https://www.fridakahlo.org/my-birth.jsp

^^^the only known (to me) celebrated artwork depicting the bloodbath thanks to which we’re all ALIVE!..! All her work is visceral & riveting. It takes mens’ post-modern style &~ infuses it life,death, blood & realistic pain.

Crazy Ex-gf

i dare u to find another TV series like it. U wouldn’t think that a comedy musical is much of a break-thru, but both it’s protagonist & the style have a spontaneity, gaiety, merriment that a woman’s light hand produces, when that woman is given some room to breathe.

It. FloWS… ~~