Compromise Hurts the Outcast

All thanks to you,my parroting White-Guilty Sis& your knee-jerking.It freed my mind to seek out such insight as this:.:

Story Ending Never

Outcast: a person who has been rejected or ostracized by their society or social group.

We are taught that balance is a good thing. And, for the most part, I’d agree with that. In many areas of life, moderation – a sister of balance – keeps you healthy. Don’t eat too much of one thing and make sure you get a little of all the vitamins. Don’t sleep too little or too much. Overexercise will injure you, but doing nothing will destroy your health. Don’t work too much or play too hard. Etc.

Achieving balance or moderation is a matter of compromise, in my opinion. And we compromise constantly to maintain a healthy lifestyle. But is compromise, moderation or balance always a good thing? I’d argue that no, it is not. Sometimes, compromise is an attack on your convictions or beliefs. To compromise on what you believe, is, in my…

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A Special Welcome Back – Chinese Style

This is why anti-racism warriors must get out of their own Western, lib. backyard

Story Ending Never

Unlike in English and other languages spoken in Western countries, there is no word for ‘racist’ or ‘racism’ in Chinese. There is a cobbling together of characters to form the following phrasal options:

种族主义者 – which roughly translates to one who righteously serves as lord and master breeder of one’s race/clan. If you plug it into a translator, you get ‘racist’ on the English end. But it is not clear for me whether this has a negative connotation if used to describe someone. Whereas ‘racist’ in Western languages has nothing other than a direct, negative meaning, in Chinese, I would strongly suspect that it doesn’t. Race supremacy is strong in China. It is something to be proud of. They do not like mixing the gene pool, but they often barely tolerate physical proximity to non-Chinese (unless they are sexually assaulting a white female) or mixing outside their cultural circles when…

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Can Anti-Woman Slurs Be Eliminated?

too brilliante not to reblog…..encompasses my own stance with immense precision

Story Ending Never

I seek to address problems that make people uncomfortable, and I talk about issues that even most feminists won’t address. I plan to do the same here. I’ve been wanting to write this one for a long time. It is an exploration. Stuff to think about. Impossibilities, likely.

The Question:

Is it possible for women to achieve what racial and religious groups have – to make discrimination a no-no; to achieve federal human rights protections; to have crimes against them designated as hate crimes; to eliminate group-targeted slurs from daily public, media and entertainment usage; and to legally make language used against group members into hate speech?

Men Succeed, Women Don’t

Unfortunately, the group we call ‘women’, despite being the largest and longest oppressed group on the planet is missing something crucial that every single other group has had and that has worked to their advantage. Men. All oppressed groups…

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why am i not surprised?../

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/important-link-between-the-brain-and-immune-system-found/

https://blogs.scientificamerican.com/illusion-chasers/the-dark-side-of-gratitude/

New evidence that autism may be an autoimmune disorder

That is concurrent with ASD getting worse with age,~like the AI, pattern;but unlike developmental disability which it's claimed to be/ People with genuine developmental impairment acquire skill throughout life like building block . Whereas for me~`~it's been a steady climb downhill since early childhood 0when i was @ my most social&didn't stim ,eg.

^ ^ ^ this doesn’t explain the Problem-Solving personality of auties.My theory=AI brain damage shows up dif. disorders in people with other traitsL :Say, addiction , mental illness, rage, psychopathy

So many mental probs’re blamed on low serotonin. Question is: where is the Gremlin that’s stealing this magic feel-good chemical? Is it eaten up by the chronic  head inflammation persons’re suffering  en masse  now?.!~

I’m starting to suspect that Extroversion simply =health. That is :~`If you feel well enough to  enjoy  high external stimulus & your communication center isn’t down:that is a luxury of your system running like a well-oiled machine

Introverts, HSPs+ASDs aren’t merely  annoyed by overload of stimulus: it actively impacts our health +ability to function healthily on an acutely painful level. All 3 share sensitive nervous system. We need peace& space like we need sleep. Aversion to risk +conflict may well be our bodies telling us that we can’t afford to injure ,or stress ourselves out,and not a random personality throw-away

For an amazing 2 hours the other day i  FELT eXtroverted. Seriously;. I wanted to scream, shout ,let it all out.  It must’ve been my gut being temporarily rested, or SUMthing

Also, speech & making loud noise requires So.Much.Energy.  I’d been trying to force myself to be outwardly vocal ….and guess what? It snapped vocal chord. TWIce !!there was a distressing pop in my throat& it hurt for several hours

Radfem anti-natalists don’t hate mothers. They simply don’t hate daughters&possess imagination

****Note on language :

  • I use colourful terms to replace Mother &Child often as a thought-experiment =to distance from emotive coding we’re used to.This is not done to appease the T-crowd,or out of misogyny 

i was inspired by this https://sinbigger.wordpress.com/?s=mother

^ ^particularly 18 min.mark`onward

as far as i’m aware,no other animal practises the cradle-to-the-grave model of pro-creation for females+young. there’re species where family groups stay together,and bonobo mums care about the mating chance of their grown sons,but that doesn’t come close to the crazy-making hot-house that is the real death do us apart we recognise bio-mothering to be. even among mammals,there’s a species of seal who abandon pups after a mere 4 days of suckling. They’re certainly no animals who routinely support runts or non-viable offspring. There’re also cases of ‘adoption’,where a female ‘ll suckle or play Mummy to another uninterested or unavailable female’s young

Heard of Mama bears? well, even they won’t put their own life in danger excessivey~ if keeping cubs alive tips too much toward the Mama’s own survival>too bad for the cubs.

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4939972/Heartwarming-moment-fishermen-save-two-drowning-bear-cubs.html

So let’s look @ the components of our human model of Mama-as-institution.Seeing as i subscribe to the very bleak +truthful observations made by CRE in her 3 posts on radfem anti-natalism,

https://cannabisrefugeeesq.wordpress.com/2019/02/01/our-mothers-want-us-dead-another-antinatalist-post/

https://cannabisrefugeeesq.wordpress.com/2019/07/09/welcome-mumsnutters/https://cannabisrefugeeesq.wordpress.com/2019/07/09/welcome-mumsnutters/https://cannabisrefugeeesq.wordpress.com/2019/07/09/welcome-mumsnutters/

https://cannabisrefugeeesq.wordpress.com/2018/12/04/what-family-means-to-me-a-lil-holiday-perspective-or-christmas-family-portraits-i-ii/

ask yourselves:”How did we get to this level of misery?”

Let’s exclude the malestream aspects of it:financial dependency,compulsory PIV,mother as villainess/heroine etc. Boil it down to the caramelised base,which even the most learned feminists normally do not.

We’re thus left with :

Component 1 “The Druggin’

The chemical tie,interpreted by everyone and anyone as Love&used  to uphold the primordial right +eternal responsibility of the woman who produced the child in her body to trump all else, incl. the daughters’ well-being

sometime it’s taken as far as hormones before conception ,making the woman wish for a child

see, such a chemical concoction exists in our bodies to prevent us from doing the logical thing to a tumour-like fetus-come-baby,who’s the product of some oppressor huffing &puffing above us for a blink of an eye> who made us ungodly-ill for 9 month>then tore out of us in a process that comprises the worst that a central nervous system can inflict on us>left permanent damage>hurt even more  to suckle>deprived us of sleep on a level which inflames your brain. and this is just infancy we’re talking about…

that logical thing  being abandonment,or throwing the creature away as tiger-kibble,or strangling it in rage.

if not for this magical hormonal infusion>no infant’d survive a day,i reckon.because there’s just nothing in it for the mammalian female to drag it around, feed it,teach it skill-without help or reward.Birds at least get solid help from fathers.

And so we get the famed mother-child bond, considered sacred.sadly,concurrent with the sloppy and ‘only good-enough’ nature of evolution,this chemical rush isn’t magical enough.:It doesn’t wipe out all the memory of the woman’s independent life, the harm of the reproductive process, the resentment, the yearning for freedom.It doesn’t smooth over personality clash {“I love my progeny, but don’t LIKE them},the oppression of sole burdened position (which can only be described as prison without parole)

ITs’ effect does bugger all beyond the young being kept alive until they can fend for themselves, or be taken on by someone else before being pulverised by the MAma Bear’s mighty paw

I experienced monmentary rushes of this kind 2X: with a human child(my sis)+a puppy. Needlessless to say: i  did not give birth to either of those creatures,so this isn’t even a MOther-only phenomenon. It’s the magic of Oxytocin

 Component 2: POWER

This one’s a BIGGIE. And no-it’s not privilege

For birthing&raising women hold the greatest power of them all:

the ability to shape and totally annihilate the daughters’ soul, if they so wish. the reason i’m not addressing sons here is that it’s part of the patriarchal obvious elements I laid aside at the outset.

nobody is capable of hurting us or building us up the way our Mothers’re able, we all know what happens with power……it corrupts. and the sort of total power that’s given to the generally birth mothers,predictably corrupts absolutely. Esp.when it’s the only power a woman ever smells in her lifetime or genetic memory,and when girls ‘re cut off from every other type of female carer and told the adage of unconditional love of their birther/raiser.so if she doesn’t earn it>it must be the daughter’s own fault.This is what we’re stuck thinking until we grow up with a bucketload of misery&then happen to chat to other daughters…..who’ve*by and large*experienced the same pit of despair and wallowed in it alone.

IN countries,where mother’s custody reigns supreme>>>this also results in legal influence.no matter which caring arrangement the girl was under before,-the mother can separate her from (typically a grandma) or less often a nominally interested Papa

   Component 3″Ability +inclination

I’m pro-doing away with the loaded,over-emotional +rewarding\imprisoning term of MOTHER. To me >this equates to simply A woman, who used her eggs successfully to grow a human being. As insanely tough as this process is:it doesn’t bestow  any  of the multitude of skills&personality traits required for raising girls

_Some of these egg-successful females ‘re good @ baby-shushing;

_others with reading’teaching

_others good @ understanding introvert kids (only other introverts….always)

Funnily enough-nobody is ever any good @ breast-feeding..to the point where the job was outsourced by mums ,who could afford it until not-so long ago.We’re a mammal species!*&^#! Figure that one out……..

overall,i’ve never met a single child-having woman,who fell out of the sky with a Mary Poppins umbrella in tow—— with all of the loooooong list of job requirements for raising a kid to fit into the nutty construct of our reality AND be kind to her in the process.

Component no.4 “Resentment

This one’s relevant in the parts of the world,where males’re devious & promise girls the world [while they’re growing up|;but snatch away the dreams away soon as an offspring departs her loins.SO it’s not a grand surprise that this tactic provides fertile ground for PND,while the rate is lower in geographical pits of patriarchal despair where girls’re never exposed to anything but the wifey-mummy model of slavery to look forward to.

PND (or the hushed by the dude-narrative ingredients for it) passes,but the lifelong resentment remains.Some Mas spell it out without sugar-coating , others express with action. A larger -than -life model of this exists in visual fiction often. Off the top of my head: Black Swan,End of the F***ing world have  the really negative characterisation.  Gilmore Girls swings to extreme opposite end of the spectrum. Jane the Virgin,Insatiable  do a middle-of-road approach.

Component no.5 “Y-imprinting

TYP has inferred that the ever-devilish Y chromosome imparts maternal behaviour into the dude-baby-carrier > so that the Y-progeny has  a slavish carer after birth -seeing as a we’re a terribly slow-maturing kind +the dudes themselves sure aren’t gonna look after their spawn! Pfft !!

This is illuminating when you see how mums behave with sons vs daughters,because while both bring on a flood of aforementioned Oxytocin cocktail—it’s SO painfully obv.to anyone who’s ever walked this earth///

///that girls shafted in that hormonal dosage. Sure, – ~Dudocracy & all, >so social program plays a role.//and Yet:  Like all things misogyny– a bio-component is not implausible. My own parent has lamented for her late-miscarried ,unwanted boy-fetus,~all the while treating her living daughters as lower life forms than her multitude of green progeny (Roses for the most part)&bemoaning being tied for life&how much she never desired to reproduce (her own Mama practiced blatant son-pref. with her brother,this scarred her for life-thus she should know better! !!)

THis applies extra hard -when you see the stark contrast in which chronically ill daughters VS sons’re treated. CRE’s written about this with bitter,graceful eloquence in regard to her mother.Mine ran off to water her luxurious garden,while not giving me hydration in the middle of a record-breaking heat wave which caused bats+horses to drop.,.,

Now look @ what mums of chronically ill sons consider to belong on the Maslow pyramid….freaking ludicrous. & neither of them dumps care of the precious male fruit-of-her-loins. i don’t believe that the hand-job mum is a pervert>>just an example of the over-empathetic Y-bubble-wrapping tool

dead.https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20121223210758AA1dPt0&guccounter=1&guce_referrer=aHR0cHM6Ly9kdWNrZHVja2dvLmNvbS8&guce_referrer_sig=AQAAAKeSwripUsiEJh2vZGMkm_8hnIklbYRw2gqZxxMZIJcNbrJzk-GQHHq_Bda5C7F83c5rMGml7IvhL7zYR_M75R8QwRTJtOe6DZKWNJ9Tfa4oEsTutOzxSUJp2S1ly-OZHAU-Cvbdqcc_5sLVGtQtmEvHdpYSUI0ljZ18xb3419aA

Mum fears disabled son, 17, could ‘accidentally kill her during violent tantrum’

Component no. 6 “Motherhood as career OR Mummy Woo

The most showy exhibit of this approach is the Stage Mum.

It shows up in milder, insidious format whenever a woman decides to throw her dreams away with such abandon}  That her child/ren become the new&improved mode of life fulfillment+social affirmation.I often ponder whether this is the hidden dragon behind crouching Tiger,Tatar ,Jewish mums,and Mummy bloggers

^I’m not going on stereotype here. It’s absolutely verifiable that the broad trend of dazzling East\Asian success across several euro-majority 1st World countries exists&that parental pressure looms large.IN USA that’s the top earning & highest performing ethnic cohort across the board of social success.They out-earn black citizens by a factor of 3. i lack statistic for Aus,but it’s palpable here as well. I mentioned Tatars as they’re an equivalent group in Russia (in fact – even more impressive,as they take on high-risk professions eg. art, sport, business}, not the safe-ish guarantors like Dr, dentist,scientist.

Sonia JOhnson mentioned a life-altering moment in her ’82 Youtube speech : …when she stopped giving staking the meaning of her existence on her mostly-male children.

The other format comes in Mummy Woo-proponents:that is ,_women who find something magical in gestation, birthing,&bonding, & the Mother Purpose. 

^I don’t dismiss such womens’ experience.We all find Woo in something. It takes an uncompromised child-free,blunt cynic like me & fewothers like me ~_~  to pinpoint the reality of this to be no dif. to any other meaningful  {to that individual}activity ,or drug-altered state.This happens to actors in That 1 Great Scene, musicians on that high note; linguists when they master that tough verb in a new tongue, writers finishing off their masterpiece novel, climber on top of mountain etc.etc.

Drum roll!!!!!

Well, now,experiment participants.Take all your ingredients ~boil them together in a pot .What does the stew smell of? !

esp. the combustible combo of Power Corruption+Resentment+unshakable chemical romance of unwanted oxytocin+all of the flashback to soul&body-tearing process of human-baby production+daughter powerlessness&naive belief (or maybe genetic memory of far-away time when we females WERE connected)

So how on earth can many of our mothers NOT want us dead, pray tell me?! ?and the rest immersed in some other logically occuring fuck-wittery, <induced by a concoction of these ingredients 

 

                           But maybe that’s not the only way.
Imagine if women didn’t have any singular attachment to kids stemming from birthing or adopting them. No memory of pain,or oppression, or crushed dreams.No 1-2 girls to take it out on. Nobody to break.No prized male child to build up &bubble wrap.NO BURDEN.No dumb luck for a daughter to end up with a slightly more apt mummy.No ownership ~thus power abuse of the girl

In Sin Bigger’s model>I can see a place for kid-averse like myself. We could stay away from the lil’buggers 😉 &still contribute by designing toys, or writing books, sewing clothes  .or maybe parent the animals

How’s this for a mother-free utopia?! …..?Sounds pretty sweet to me

 

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Lesbophobe&anti-natalist, you say?<

 

the same rad,who deemed me a racist..also brought down the hammer on a 2nd offense:

lesbophobe {based on Dead to Me,where i challenged social sex-obsession}

fortunately i’ve recently discovered my soul-sister,whose view on everything aligns with my own .top of the list are race, sex,+slur-slinging. she outlined it all beautifully succinctly here:

https://storyendingnever.wordpress.com/2017/10/17/what-about-women-forced-sexuality-part-iii/

People are so very tribal, and what they like least of all are those straddling tribes (remember that Hollywoo moment in mid-90s,when bi-sexuals were the height of evil//..)

OR renouncing tribal allegiance  en toto.

..and this precisely what sexually unaligned women like me &this author do. It aint’ pretty,when feminist discourse is so heavily rooted in the ins&outs (pun intended)of genitalia dictating our lives.

& it makes fems antsy.specially young,insecure lesbian ones(as pointed out by this author)&this specific gal does seem insecure indeed.

*i’m emotionally gay. i always have been ,,like the author above. my search for female approval &deep energetic connection has run my life. i don’t even know whether my intense pull towards certain women+girls (1 produced a dream which felt  erotic, yet nothing of the kind happened in it). females i despised still felt like memorable individuals to me.i’ve trouble processing Y-carriers as my species *so that duping us into thinking they’re female doesn’t work on me (not the Ts, what Trust talked about)

i also don’t wish to reproduce mentally, but my hormones do. and ASD brains produce either hypersexuality, or asexuality in women, which is fundamentally wired to our fertility) &nothing in between,and it tapers off with age (and in my case) undoing the neuro-plasiticity.

i’ve had such thoughts myself, but here they are re-affirmed here:https://cherryblossomlife.wordpress.com/2019/10/14/fuck-ive-just-realized-why-we-need-to-know-who-the-father-is/

..in times past;whenever i ovulated, I’d scan mens’ bodies for nice parts (namely hands).it still did nothing to pull me towards them personally. they were drones as much as ever.once (when i was 26 & in peak reproductive age),i met a man who overwhelmed  me with something undefinable. i didn’t react to his photo, but when i was around him even briefly }that desire was the post powerful thing i ever felt,…’which pulled me into doing wacky ,extremely uncharacteristic things like risking my job &future commendation to sleep with him. He too was almost completely a personal drone. /

but, but

it should be noted that he was very Mestizo-Hispanic.he came from a country with a high concentration of indigenous blood in the mixed populace. and CBL mentions the dif.race part, & mixed race humans have a well-earned rep for looking attractive, or at the very least interesting. So racism doesn’t compute in women ~since genetic diversity is  very  good for our offspring. in fact, this is why racism exists in men!! to control women ~to avoid them wandering away & mating with the other tribe.pure-blood beings only exist as a product of mens/ millenia-long shielding of women from this. so in essence…

patriarchy is reproductively unhealthy. Marrying 1 male of the same tribe &producing 14 offspring with him is 14 times a genetic fail. 13 of those being the most egregious, because once doesn’t produce any siblings available to in-breeding

in fact,,i’d speculate that this is an extra reason (on top of dude-meds+poison of everything) as to why why we’re so flipping ill these days.look what happens to pure-bred dogs,esp, when the breeding stock is narrow. and what happened to european royalty.the only reason they aren’t hemophilic these days -is via infusion of non-royal blood in recent time.

what i don’t support about CBL’s stance is her not translating a search for genetic health into anti-natalism for the genetically unhealthy.there is good reason why DOwn syndrome sufferers are sterile.~because Nature is a eugenicist.

 

my aspie , radiated father shoulda known better than to breed & auties shouldn’t reproduce in general. This is the woefully un-PC opinion of the face of autism (Temple Grandin). i support it.my long-suffering chronically ill friend also knew better:she chose not to have the 2 kids she planned _cos she couldn’t bare to inflict her kind of pain on anybody else.

so anti-natalists (not the mysogynist kind) are not sick in the head, or evil fascists out to curtail the maternal instinct cos they’re feeling evil that day. instinctively,i think we know that the jig is up with our kind of life on this planet &under this regime.thanks to that same female intuition witchy radfems praise.

in fact, this kind of blind support for some womens’ drive to pro-create is kinda……lib-femmy.why don’t the proponents of the Anti-Mother Hate camp listen to their other intuition ,eh?isnt that like tuning into only AM radio&dismissing all FM-listeners as AM-haters?why don’t they heed the cries of ASD<HSP<introvert XXs,whom extrovert motherhood (the only 1 on  offer) is killing in body&mind!>!

after all, there ‘re other animals who practise anti-natalism . Kangaroos freeze joey embryos in lean season, rats in overcrowded cage kick males trying to mate +continue to do that after being removed into better space.our very close chimp relatives miscarry when a new team of males overtakes.in fact:human females do that too with new dick-sticker .

it’s illogical to dismiss anti-natalism as being against nature. are those kangaroo would-be-mums ….mother-haters?!can we at least commit to a freeze on our joey-production until we sort this male global mess out? ideologically>as of course women can’t help being used as child-factories when they have no say&can’t/wont help taking it out on daughters. also women do not become saints when they reproduce . if they were shit humans to start with>they don’t go through a magical personality cleanse.in fact, they ‘re likely to worsen with the inhuman suffering inflicted in them via the process.all i experience with statements such as every woman’s child is perfect to her is…

 

yeah,right….

it is ,again, not practised in nature~where unviable cubs are abandoned, or whether saving them risks the mum’s life too much. this indoctrination stems to Victorian times.

like said here , don’t trust your feelings &how society milks them. for instance, i grieve my poor puppy lost to a hideous genetic disease,but that doesn’t compel me to get another one  of the same breed.in fact, it made me re-assess the whole existence of pure-bred dogs:

https://icemountainfire.wordpress.com/

 

….so why aren’t women who have enough cerebral agency to override their fertile -sexual drive celebrated, or just simply listened to, eh???? why is mind-over-matter not  virtue and feelings reign supreme in womens’ space -to promote only sexual lesbianism; mindless pro-creation, or whatever else the feminist’s heart desires?

 

To go back to female-mimicking , there is 1 male who managed to so successfully.Nope, he didn’t chop off his genitals and wear lippy IRL.He was merely born so XX-like that it’s uncanny. the remarkable thing, however,is that he’s not effeminate, but naturally almost woman-like.Everything about him from facial type ..to body language..to energy…to behaviour ,,to how he hugs a child.   .and it’s not something You-KNOW-Whos can ever dream of doing with all their slicing, dicing, painting, & tantrums

This guy’s name is Jaime Camil.I’ve spent 5 season watching him on Jane the Virgin, seen 2 of his novelas & some movies& watched extensive interviews in fascination.it’s like i don’t register him as a dude despite him doing such a dudely thing as marrying, breeding a Y & splashing it all over SM as a virtue.wierder still is his choice of woman too:a thoroughly odd-looking ex-model.-with a face only a mother could love & def. not one dudes would choose as arm-candy status symbol.dude’s a great screen kisser too ,unlike the aggressive male style you see. i saw several, maybe 5 min. scenes when he did nothing but kiss+nuzzle gently&with variation.<so no dude sexual aggression observed either.

back in his native Mexico he was grilled relentlessly over his ‘metrosexuality’.they couldnt pin him down cos he’s not gay, or intersex,or trans, or limp-wristed.  GNC ppl,who are not of the LGB tribe are distrusted (tribe outliers)

so what the hell is he,i wonder?statistical outlier,or did he get bathed in estrogen in the womb or something? or is it that feminisation process that’s been continuing for several millenia,where sexual dimorphism&alpha facial structure  reduced>is he the male of the future (as in the only kind women MIGHT consider humping willingly)      >>

so weird &wonderful.and he doesn’t jump onto his co-star’s self-serving male feminist platform,but doesnt spout any direct sexism either.it’s like he’s content in his special club of 1.like he gained entrance to holistic female-ness,while being male-privileged.no wonder he’s a deliriously joyful person&projects it around him.Everyone who’s worked with him,described his presence as a “wave of love’ or something similar.